Broken
Have you ever looked inside yourself and thought: How am I still alive? Looked around you, and wondered how you've made it this far? I have felt so introspective lately. I have felt weathered, and beaten down; gray in a world full of magnificent colors. Doubt has been plaguing me, and indecision. Retrospectively, I have been focusing on negative events that have occurred in the past. I've allowed self-doubt to creep in and single-handedly choke the very life out of me that I have fought so hard to keep a tight-fisted grip on. A few weeks ago, I found myself sitting in the counselor's office at my primary care physician. I told him all about things that have been happening, feelings I have felt. The doubt, the disappointment in myself. I found myself focusing on all the ways I feel I have failed as a mother. The list is extremely long. He was so kind, and patient. He listened so well. At the end of my visit, the doctor and the counselor conferred. They felt i